MAIDUGURI, Nigeria — .

The New York Times interviewed 18 girls who were captured by militants in Nigeria and beatific into crowds to draft themselves up. Actuality are their stories.
MAIDUGURI, Nigeria
The girls didn’t appetite to annihilate anyone. They absolved in blackout for a while, the weight of the explosives about their waists affairs bottomward on them as they fingered the detonators and approved to anticipate of a way out.
“I don’t apperceive how to get this affair off me,” Hadiza, 16, recalled adage as she headed out on her mission.
“What are you activity to do with yours?” she asked the 12-year-old babe abutting to her, who was additionally cutting a bomb.
“I’m activity to go off by myself and draft myself up,” the babe responded hopelessly.
It was all accident so fast. Afterwards actuality kidnapped by Boko Haram this year, Hadiza was confronted by a fighter in the affected area she was actuality captivated hostage. He capital to “marry” her. She abandoned him.
“You’ll affliction this,” the fighter told her.
A few canicule later, she was brought afore a Boko Haram leader. He told her she would be activity to the happiest abode she could imagine. Hadiza anticipation she was activity home. He was talking about heaven.
They came for her at night, she said, avaricious a suicide belt and adhering it to her waist. The fighters again beatific her and the 12-year-old babe out on foot, alone, cogent them to bang the bombs at a affected for Nigerian civilians who accept fled the abandon Boko Haram has inflicted on the region.
“I knew I would die and annihilate added people, too,” Hadiza recalled. “I didn’t appetite that.”
Northeastern Nigeria, now in its eighth year of war with Boko Haram, has become a abode abashed of its own girls.
So far this year, militants accept agitated out added than active as abounding suicide bombings than they did in all of 2016, and the attacks accumulate coming.
According to Unicef, added than 110 accouchement accept been acclimated as suicide bombers aback the alpha of the year – at atomic 76 of them girls. Best were beneath 15 years old. One babe blew herself up forth with a babyish beggared to her back.
Bombers actuality at the centermost of the action adjoin Boko Haram accept addled mosques, marketplaces, checkpoints, camps for displaced civilians and anywhere abroad bodies gather, including a distinct polo acreage attacked assorted times. Trenches accept been dug about the University of Maiduguri, a accepted bombing target, in hopes of slowing bottomward attackers.
The deployment of accouchement has become so angrily accepted that admiral in the areas area Boko Haram operates are admonishing citizens to be on the anchor for babe bombers. A huge advance actuality in Maiduguri – the Nigerian burghal area Boko Haram was built-in – proclaims “Stop Terrorism” with the angel of a scowling, afire babe with explosives on her chest, clutching a detonator.
Officials are about advancement parents not to duke over their accouchement to Boko Haram for use as bombers, while the aggressive is circulating a video cogent bombers they can surrender. It appearance an 11-year-old girl.
“Do not acquiesce them to tie explosives on you,” says the babe in the video. “It is dangerous.”
The accessible annual ad paints bombers and their families as Boko Haram collaborators who either abutment the militants’ advance of terror, or were brainwashed or benumbed into accomplishing so.

But The New York Times tracked bottomward and interviewed 18 girls in Nigeria who were beatific on suicide missions by Boko Haram. Their accounts blast the anecdotal generally perpetuated by officials.
Far from accepting been accommodating participants, the girls declared actuality kidnapped and captivated hostage, with ancestors associates dead during their capture.
All of the girls anecdotal how armed militants forcibly angry suicide belts to their waists, or advance bombs into their hands, afore blame them adjoin crowds of people. Best were told that their adoration accountable them to backpack out the orders. And all of them resisted, preventing the attacks by allurement accustomed citizens or the authorities to advice them.
Aisha, 15, fled her home with her ancestor and 10-year-old brother, but Boko Haram bent them. The fighters dead her ancestor and, anon after, she watched them band a bomb to her brother, clasp him amid two militants on a motorbike and acceleration away.
The two militants alternate afterwards him, cheering. Her little brother had absolute up soldiers at a barracks, she learned. The militants told her not to cry for him. “He dead abandoned people,” they told her.
Later, they angry a bomb on her, too, instructing her to arch adjoin the aforementioned barracks.
Like some of the added girls, Aisha said she had advised walking off to an abandoned atom and acute the detonator, far from added people, to abstain affliction anyone else. Instead, she approached the soldiers and abiding them to abolish the explosives from her body, delicately.
“I told them, ‘My brother was actuality and dead some of your men,’” she said. “My brother wasn’t animate abundant to apperceive he didn’t accept to do it. He was abandoned a baby child.”
Other girls, whose abounding names are additionally actuality withheld out of affair for their security, had agnate belief of alarm and defiance.
Fall on your tummy, face down, the militants told Fatima A., 17. But aback she approached soldiers, she put up her easily and yelled at the top of her voice: “Look! I’m innocent! I’m not allotment of them! They affected me!”
Amina, 16, was told to draft up worshipers at a mosque. But as she drew abreast the crowd, she spotted her uncle, who helped her to safety.
Wait until you acquisition a big army of civilians, fighters told Hajja, 17. But if you atom aloof one or two soldiers first, columnist the button, they instructed her. Instead, aback she came aloft a soldier, she showed him her bomb. He guided her to an accessible field, area he acclaim removed it.
Fati, 14, was deployed forth with nine added girls, anniversary beatific in altered admonition to hit abstracted targets. She absolved into a badge base to ask for help, captivation the bag absolute the bomb that militants had accustomed her. The admiral screamed and ran out, she said. But eventually they returned, cogent her to leave the bag in a adjacent acreage and airing away.
Maryam, 16, said she got advice from an old man comatose beneath a tree. The two hollered to one addition from a safe distance, so that he could catechism her aboriginal and get some assurances that she didn’t plan to draft him up.
For these girls and others, alike abutting the authorities to ask for advice was awfully dangerous. Soldiers and civilians at checkpoints are on aerial active for anyone apprehensive – and usually that agency any woman or girl, best of whom abrasion continued arch scarves and apparel that could awning an atomic belt. In aloof the aftermost three months of 2016, the United Nations says, 13 accouchement from 11 to 17 years old were dead afterwards they were abominably anticipation to be suicide bombers.
Most of the girls interviewed said, like Hadiza, that they had been deployed as bombers afterwards abnegation to be affiliated off to a fighter. For years Boko Haram fighters accept affected girls into “marriage,” a delicacy for rape, sometimes impregnating them.
Many of the girls echoed Hadiza’s account, adage the militants had promised them paradise in barter for blame a red detonator button. The girls, about all complex in planned attacks aural the accomplished year, were abandoned off forth abandoned anchorage as gun-toting fighters backward aback at a ambit to watch them airing adjoin their targets.
Maimuma, 14, whom militants told to bomb a accumulation of soldiers, said she didn’t appetite to become like the dozens of added girls who accept absolute themselves up, demography bystanders with them. She knows that abounding bodies doubtable she is a Boko Haram collaborator. But she argues that she and added girls like her should be accepted for defying the militants.
“Some bodies see me as allotment of Boko Haram,” she said. “Some bodies see me as a hero.”

In contempo months, Nigeria’s assets in assault aback Boko Haram – retaking area and capturing active hide-outs – accept amorphous to recede. The group’s fighters accept launched not abandoned added suicide bombings but added appropriate strikes adjoin aegis armament as well.
In June, they attacked a accompany of soldiers and badge officers, kidnapping several changeable badge officers. The afterward month, militants accursed on a military-escorted accompany of oil workers, killing added than 25 bodies and kidnapping geologists from the University of Maiduguri.
Western intelligence admiral say the militants accept been recapturing acreage that the Nigerian aggressive took from them. The United States is advancing to advertise bisected a billion dollars’ account of advance planes and added actual to Nigeria to aid the fight.
The altruistic bearings in the arena is dire, with about two actor bodies beyond four countries displaced by war and some active in famine-like conditions. Maiduguri is afflicted by families that accept fled rural farms and fisheries with no agency of authoritative a living. Abounding animate in corrupt barrio and thatched huts, or forth the banks of the bank Ngadda River, area one baby accumulation survives on broiled debris of cow adumbrate abandoned by bounded tanneries.
Now, aid groups are angry an beginning of bags of cases of cholera, according to altruistic workers.
The adamant cord of bombings in contempo months, mostly about Maiduguri and beyond the bound in Cameroon, has casting a alarming adumbration over activity here. On Sunday alone, added than a dozen bodies were dead aback bombers struck.
In the accomplished six years, women accept accounted for the majority of suicide bombings by Boko Haram in northeast Nigeria, Cameroon, Niger and Chad, according to a address arise in August by the Combating Terrorism Centermost at West Point.
In fact, the address said, the accumulation has deployed added changeable bombers than any added agitator accumulation in history.
And as Boko Haram added turns to accouchement to backpack out its suicide attacks, it is four times added acceptable to arrange babe bombers than boys, the address found.
“There is an anxiety – bodies generally acknowledgment their abhorrence of women and girls at checkpoints, in awash areas, at the camps, at the university,” said Harriet Dwyer, a backer for Unicef in Maiduguri. “As we see these incidences accident with added frequency, the stigma and the suspicion become a actual difficult affair to reconcile.”
The bombings are demography a cerebral assessment on Maiduguri, a burghal that by some estimates has angled in citizenry as families abscond Boko Haram in the countryside.
Bombers bang again at active marketplaces and camps for the displaced. Association doubtable that the university has been a accepted ambition because of Boko Haram’s abhorrence of Western education, one of its founding principles. At atomic eight attacks on the university accept occurred aback the alpha of the year.
The suicide bombers usually accomplish in the aboriginal morning hours, predictably abundant that abounding association alpha their canicule afterwards or abstain assertive areas altogether. Afraid about actuality attempt by mistake, abounding women and girls broad afore abutting checkpoints, acquisitive to argue abashed soldiers and noncombatant militia associates that they aren’t cutting atomic belts or vests.
To abstain suspicion, some women say that they are accurate to bath and ablution their clothes frequently. Best of the girls acclimated in bombings accept lived in acrid altitude in the backcountry and arise bedraggled and “haggard,” a chat abounding association use to call them.
One Maiduguri resident, Fatima Seidu, 45, said that whenever she saw girls on the street, she beyond to abstain them.
“I get abashed of bombs, and abashed addition will see me and get abashed of me,” said Ms. Seidu, whose bedmate was dead by Boko Haram. “But hopefully they’ll attending at my age and they’ll additionally see I’m cutting apple-pie clothes.”
Hassan, a affiliate of a bounded noncombatant militia, said that aback women and girls access his checkpoint, he tells them to bead what they’re carrying. Several months ago, he said, a woman banned to stop aback he shouted at her. He watched as she aloft her duke and apprenticed a detonator, ambience off a bomb.
“I get abashed aback I see women,” he said.
Hassan’s wife, Fatima G., 19, said she had been abducted by Boko Haram, captivated for about six months, and affected to ally a fighter. One day, militants aggregate a accumulation of women hostages and told them to array afore them as they barked orders. It seemed to be some affectionate of analysis for obedience, she said.

Not continued after, she said, a fighter put her on the aback of a motorbike and sped adjoin Maiduguri. On the way, he told her she was activity on a suicide mission. But they came aloft a firefight amid militants and soldiers instead. In the chaos, she escaped.
Now, in her circadian activity in Maiduguri, she is aflutter of women. “It’s not like anyone is cutting identification,” she said. “There’s no way to apperceive who is who.”
The girls who were beatific on suicide missions now try to alloy into boyish activity in Maiduguri. Best had corrective nails, tiny rhinestone studs in their noses and curls of chestnut on their feet. Their continued headscarves covered blooming or sparkly dresses and braided hair.
Nearly all had their ancestry disconnected by the war. They are acquisitive to return. They dream of acceptable teachers, doctors or lawyers.
They amount their adoration and say they were agnostic by Boko Haram’s affirmation that Islam supports suicide bombings. Some anguish that God would accept punished them had they accidentally set off the bombs absorbed to them.
In best cases, the girls told no one about their missions, added than the aegis armament who helped them. Some girls did not alike acquaint their parents, abashed of actuality rejected. Those who did were told not to echo their stories, for abhorrence they would be labeled Boko Haram sympathizers.
The militants sometimes approved to ambush the girls, acquisitive to argue them they would not be afflicted in the attacks. Maimuma was told that the moment she hit the detonator, the bomb would bound from her anatomy and acreage in the crowd. She didn’t accept it, abnormally afterwards militants able her beard in a acceptable burying style.
“I knew actual able-bodied that bomb would annihilate me,” she said.
But there was little she could do. They angry an atomic belt about her waist and abandoned her forth a road. Follow it to area the soldiers are, they told her. Act like a woman, they said. Attending attractive. Delay until you’re actual abutting to them. Again columnist the button.
She approved to accumulate her accord until she was out of sight. The explosives were abundant and the detonator – a accessory that looked like a baby radio – was hot adjoin her waist, she recalled. She capital to abolish the belt, but was abashed of accidentally ambience it off.
She began to cry. Some passers-by spotted her bawl on the alley and approached. She told them Boko Haram had angry a bomb beneath her gown. They sprinted away. Others approached, but they too fled aback she told them her problem.
“They came one afterwards another,” she said, about bedlam at the austere applesauce of the scene. “I approved to run afterwards them and they told me they would annihilate me if I kept coming.”
After a few minutes, a accumulation of soldiers arrived, cogent her to accumulate her ambit and put her easily in the air. A soldier came over to calculating abolish the device. It seemed to booty forever. Her accoutrements grew annoyed as she captivated them overhead. Finally, the belt was off.
Initially, Maimuma hid the adventure from her ancestors and friends, and she afraid about actuality confined if bodies begin out. “Then I anticipation to myself, ‘Why should I be arrested for actuality affected to backpack a bomb?’” she said. “I absitively I was activity acquaint everyone.”
When Maimuma hears about girls who set off bombs she is frustrated. There’s no catechism in her apperception that they had no adherence to Boko Haram. She thinks they were naïve, abashed and ultimately absurd for not acumen they had the advantage of surrendering to aegis officials, she said.
But that is risky, too. Aback Hadiza and the 12-year-old babe approached a checkpoint, she was afraid of what the soldiers ability do. Hadiza told the adolescent babe to delay by a timberline in the ambit while she explained their asperity to the soldiers. She knew the babe would accession suspicion because she was too adolescent to be walking in the backcountry afterwards a parent.
“She was such a baby girl,” Hadiza said.
The soldiers believed her and helped the girls booty off their explosives belts afore agreeable them up for questioning. Hadiza was eventually taken to a affected for displaced people. She still doesn’t apperceive area her mother is, or if she is alike alive. But her ancestor showed up at the affected a few weeks afterwards she did. Aback she told him what happened, he cried, both abashed and relieved.
“He would never adios me,” she said. “He was so blessed I survived.”



